I'm sorry, I'm not okay. I'm not okay with that. I'm here, waiting for you to make a move. The wait is so long that I want to stop everything. You, me, the thing that we maybe have, the thing that we might have. I'm lost. I'm my head, in my mind, in my life, I'm lost. Too lost for you. So, can we just, stop everything ?
I need something in my life, or I need to change my life. I need to start over. With or without you. But you're not there and I think it will be better without you ultimately.
It's weird how it can hurt so bad, but sometimes not all at. I'm lost you see ? And I feel so far away from me. Like I'm not even there.
I need to move on, to let the memories behind, let this part of me. I need to find myself. Because I never dit that before.